A Major Case of the Feels and Big Spoilers

So I know that I already made a post today, but I had to make a quick one. I just finished watching episode two of season two of Agents of Shield. More importantly I saw a preview for the next episode and *MAJOR SPOILERS* it would seem that Simmons is Hydra or at least evil in general. Noooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! This cannot be happening! Fitz needs to get better right now and Simmons needs to come back and be good. Aarrrggghhh! This can't be happening! I'm having serious FitzSimmons feels right now!

Tomorrow is the Beginning of October

I was just biting my lip (one of the many bad habits I have) and it's started to bleed. Yay. Blood. :P

Ah yes, I forgot to mention yesterday; after seeing how a friend changed her blog to fall leaves I decided to change my blog to have a more Autumn look as well. I like it a lot better now (I would have had it like this a while ago, but it just wouldn't have fit).

So I've been becoming obsessed with the song Life's Too Short Reprise, from the deleted Frozen soundtrack. I really love the deleted soundtrack (though I don't care for the song You're You). I actually started learning the song on piano. It's harder than I thought it would be. I mean it's not hard, hard, but you have to really stretch your hands at times.

I've been doing a bit of character development for Believe. I have a new character chart, and I just finished filling it out for my main character, Nora. The only thing I'm missing is a flaw. How does the story change her? I'd definitely say that this story is a rough draft, still needs some work. I'm used to really deep plots with battle, and change, and heart break, but this story is quite different than my average story. It's set in the real world, with real people, with real, normal lives. No epic battles, no running across the country (er, well sorta, but no exactly). It's gonna be a rough first draft, but I'll finally be getting it on page.

I think it's going to be rough because I've been adding more guy characters to my stories (I kind of forget about them sometimes, and then all the characters are girls :P). The hard thing though is I don't know how guys things. I don't know how they'd respond to things, how they'd feel, what they'd do, how much they'd care. I know it depends on the guy, but I don't want to make my guy to sensitive/girlish. The guy in this story is the supporting character. He's helping these two girls as they come into contact with ghosts and supernatural beings, he's helping them get through it. But I don't want him to be super soft and caring to the point where he doesn't seem like he'd be tough (cause he's gonna need to be tough. Ghosts aren't exactly always friendly, if you know what I mean).

Really I feel like I have this huge idea in my head, with great characters who change and evolve into greater people; people who go on daring adventures, explore new ideas and life and see the beauty of the world. But once that's on paper what will it look like? Do I need more plot, or a more riveting plot, or am I so used to battles and wars that it only seems simple to me? It's hard to say.

Lots of Shopping

I think I have mentioned on this blog before about my lack of clothing. We don't have money coming in all that steady, and I've been outgrowing all my clothes. It's kind of been a nightmare, because when you're clothes don't fit well then I feel really awkward and uncomfortable. But yesterday all that finally changed. My grandma is here from out of town, and she offered to buy me some much needed clothes (I've literally been wearing the same jeans for months, with washing them of course). Usually when I got shopping we spend the day at the mall (which is one of my least favorite places) and find hardly any, or no clothes that fit/feel good/are in our price range. Yesterday was completely different. We started by doing some online shopping on Thread Up. It's a place that sells barely used clothes (so they're still in almost perfect condition). Sereina got free shipping (I forgot how, something to do with Pinterest I think?) and so I got to go through and I ordered a new jacket, and quite a few shirts! Then we went shopping and I finally found a pair of jeans that look amazing and feel amazing, along with some knee high socks (my favorite) and a camasal. So I pretty much have an entier new wardrobe (except that my shirts aren't here yet). It was also a very good day because my grandma treated us shoppers (my mom, Tiana, grandma, and myself) to lunch at P.F. Changs. Their spicy orange chicken is out of this world! Ohhh, it was sooo good! We hardly ever get to go to Changs, just cause it's kind of expensive and my dad doesn't like it very much. But I love it!

So my day out shopping wasn't so bad after all.

It's almost October! Then it's only a month until NaNoWriMo, and everyone can start entering their novel information on the site! I have so much plotting left to do, but I'm still way more confident than last year. Last year literally all I had to work with was "two girls get caught in a tsunami and end up on a deserted island, but it's not deserted because there's actually a terrorist organization that's going to kill the president." If I wrote fifty thousand words from that then I think I'll make it this year. Gahh, I'm so excited! :D

Kokopelli is laying on my lap, and I'm sitting on the floor, so typing is really hard. I have the Chrome Book on my knees, and the only thing keeping it there are my palms. It's very shaky, but I'm actually doing pretty good. Koko's still depressed. He sleeps at the top of the stairs all the time, like he's waiting for Doji to come through the door. I still hold hope, however slim it may be.

Well, I think I ought to go take a shower. Then I'm going to make myself a big cup of chocolate milk and sit down and wither plot Believe, research supernatural activities, or practice Gaelic. I've been meaning to get serious about learning it. I think I'll practice a little now: Tha mi duilich - I'm sorry. Ciamar a tha thu? - How are you (informal). Tha mi fuar agus fliuch - I am cold and wet. Latha math - Hello (good day). Beannachd leibh - goodbye. Tha mi gu math - I'm well. Madainn vhath - goodmorning (feminine). Oidhche mhath - goodnight (feminine).

Okay, I'm gonna go shower now. Beannachd leibh!

Movies

Kokopelli seems to sad this past week. All he ever does is eat then sleep. I know that might sound totally normal for a cat, but it's different. He must really miss Doji. We all do; it's pretty much certain that he's gone now. But I keep hoping he somehow is just far away, and is on the long trek home. In the mean time, Koko is pretty bored. I feel so bad for him.

Plotting for my novel has been going... slow. It's lacking true plot, conflict, you know. The things that make a story what it is. I've been getting good help from the NaNoWriMo forums, thank goodness. People always seem to see the things I can't, and thank goodness for that. I suppose that's why I'm so bad at giving advice, I just don't see those things. Oh, and by saying I'm bad at giving advice, I mean that in a observational way.

Tiana has a strange obsession with cows.

Last night we finally watched The Two Towers! Eeekk, Lord of the Rings is awesome! I think my favorite characters are Frodo, Aragorn, and Legolas. I'm not sure if I like Arwen or not, then there is this blonde girl... I dunno her name. Elwyn or something like that. She's cool. But I'm so excited for the last movie. It's bitter sweet, just cause it's the last movie. But I haven't been watching the extended versions, so there is more waiting for me even after I've seen The Return of the King.

So HISHE came out with The Amazing Spider-Man 2 by the fans. It was really funny, especially the ending. Uggg, I want Gwen back. Actually, there are rumors that in the next Spider-Man movie they are seriously going to bring Gwen back. I really hope they do, even if it's a little cheesy. Or extremely cheesy. I want Gwen back! Gwweeeeeennnnnnn... :( Oh yeah, speaking of Spider-Man, Sereina got the huge Amazing Spider-Man 2 poster from her work and now it's hanging in my room. It's epic!

I'm so excited for NaNoWriMo, as I've said a great many times! Haha, and I'll keep saying it! Actually, it's only four more days until we can start entering information on our novels. I'm so excited! Ahhhh!

Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. Season Two

Oh my gosh, how could I have forgotten to post yesterday that it was finally the return of Agents of Shield! Eeekkk! I'm totally fangirling over the latest episode but like. Oh dear. There could be a riot (okay, Tiana and I might riot). Because (minor spoiler that isn't a spoiler if you saw the whole last season and though about the after effects of an event that happened to a certain character) Fitz is not quite... right. After his little episode under the sea, going without oxygen for a while, well... he's not himself. D: It's sooo sad, and I want the good old Fitz back! I can't wait till next Tuesday now, they're going to be the highlight of my week from now on, because Agents of Shield is awesome!

I also forgot (or I forgot that I remembered and I'm repeating myself) that yesterday was the beginning of Autumn. FINALLY! Summer's reign on earth has ended, and rising to power is Autumn! Bring on the pumpkins, let the trees change colors, light the candles and bring the rain! I've been waiting since the end of Winter for this. I basically just live through Spring and Summer and live for Autumn and Winter.

So for my job at Trebon, I think I've finally completed my "training." I'm at least very close. It's hard to say, since I'm still new to the stuff I can't tell just yet. But today I need to write up all my notes on how to do everything. This time I'm going to be flying solo, trying to do as much as I can with very little questions. I have a feeling I'll still be asking quite a few questions, but I'm much better off now.

Zach (my old/new laptop mentioned in another post) is still unable to connect to the internet. I think it's missing something from when we set it up and now I can't do anything. I went into the little closet in my room (more like the place where no man should ever go) but the box with the disks to properly set up the computer wasn't there. All that pain of crawling in the tiny, crammed space, for nothing.

Have you ever love an instrument song, but wanted to sing along? That happens to me a lot. Actually there's probably a reason; a lot of the instrument songs have choirs in the background and I want to chant with them but I don't really know what they're saying (not that they're actually saying anything). Actually, speaking of singing along, yesterday when I took my shower I set up some music. Showering is a lot funner when you have music to sing along to. I mean, I like showering and all, but once I get in I never want to get out; sometimes I'll just stand in the shower to "warm up" and then like ten minuets later I want out but I haven't cleaned my hair yet. :P

NaNoWriMo approaches! Okay, um, I've been saying that in every post I think. But I'm just so excited! It's almost only a month away! Actually... wow. Only three months until 2015. How did that happen? It's funny, because from that perspective it makes the seasons seem like Winter and Autumn are really short and Summer is really long. :/ Anyways, back on topic (sorta). This means it's only three (almost two) months until my birthday. My sweet sixteen birthday. Wow, I'm going to be old enough to get my license. Eh, who cares? But I mean, sixteen? That seems so surreal. I wonder if we'll even be able to do anything for my birthday? Money is still tight, but I'd like to do something special for my sixteenth birthday. I mean, you only turn sixteen once, and it's your sweet sixteen. I dunno exactly why, is it just because you can drive then, or what? Eh, I still got time. I honestly don't even know what I'd want to do anyways. :P

Weellllll, I'm gonna go do some plotting. I'm not entirely sure what to do next in my story though. I know how I want it to end, but I'm not quite sure how to get there yet. It's gonna be a rough, rough draft, but no matter what I can't get any worse than last years (watch me post on November first: It's worse than last years!). :P

Zach

So yesterday my dad and I pulled out my grandma's laptop. It hasn't been working the best and had been in storage for like, a year now. We finally decided to completely wipe the hard drive so I could use it (after all, NaNoWriMo is approaching, and I don't have a computer!). But now there's complications, we couldn't find a certain disk need so we took a few short cuts and now I can't connect to the internet (so you can tell I'm not writing this post from that computer). Oh yes, I named the computer Zach, so if I say anything about Zach from now on I am referring to the computer, not a person.

Actually, I'll be right back, I'm going to go make come chocolate milk for Daniel and I (it's sugar free, whoop!).

Okay, I'm finally back. After I had the chocolate milk Tiana and I worked on an idea of a book cover for my NaNo novel. On the website you can post a book cover, and I'd like to actually get this one printed (I didn't print last years because it was plain terrible).

Actually, this is going to be a short post. I'm going to go work on Believe. Plotting that is, or working on a cover, or characters, or something to prepare myself for NaNoWriMo. It's almost October, which is the mark of only one month till November (and you can start entering novel information on the website!).

The Grand Opera and Other Things

It's been a week since Doji disappeared. My hope is that someone saw him, and seeing no collar took him (he is, after all, a pretty cat). Why would that be my hope? Because if someone took him, even if they're keeping him indoors, there's hope he'll come home. Doji is... trouble. He is a disaster, and very sneaky. One way or another, if someone's keeping him indoors, he's gonna get out. So hopefully that's what happened and he's either gonna get out and find his way home, or is already on his way home. This is my hope.

In other news, today we went to an opera open house thingy. We got to see a little behind the scenes, these guys did these on the spot mash ups of stories, and we got to see a little bit about trap doors and effects on the stage. It was pretty cool, but I don't think I'd even pay to go to an opera. It just ain't my thing.

Forty days until NaNoWriMo! Whoo hoo! I'm so excited, yet nervous. I mean, I'm not sure I've got enough plot (ug, the same struggle as last year). Again, I really should have chosen my other story. It had roughly the same about of plot I have now, only that was just the beginning of a bigger story. I also need to stay focused, because I want to start working on other stories now. It's just how I work; whenever I feel the urge I switch stories that I'm working on. It's the only way I'd even get anything done on all nine (though only about four or five are really serious stories, if you know what I mean).

Actually, speaking of NaNoWriMo, we have one confirmed friend! Her name is Lilly, and she's officially going to do NaNo! I think my other friend, Evangeline, said she was doing it and my friend Lauryn said she's doing it, and her older sister Morgan might do it too. I hope lots of people do it. I want people to talk to on the sight, swap stories! I think to get to know a person (if they're a writer) it's good to know what type of stories they like. Get the feel for them, the mood and things. Like as some people may know about my writing, I love big. Whenever I do a writing exercise I always take a drastic turn with something like a battle, kidnapping, volcano erupting, etc. I don't do "normal" I do battles. Big, bad villains! Don't get me wrong here though. I love character development, something to make you relate and sympathize, villains you can love/hate! Buuuuuut, I usually mix it with something drastic.

I finally got How to Train Your Dragon from the library! :D I'm so excited, I'm planning to watch it tomorrow. But you know what's funny? My neighbors actually have owned this movie the whole time so I could have borrowed it ages ago! But I forgot (yes, I actually knew that but had forgotten!). Ah, the brain tis a funny thing (yes, I meant to say tis instead of is).

My pajamas smell funny. I think it's the new laundry soap we're trying. I don't like it.

False Alarm, Thank Goodness

Something kind of strange just happened. So just us kids are at home, since my dad is off to Idaho for a few days and my mom is out. We were cleaning up the house when someone knocked at the door. Not too unusual, so of course we all fell silent and started crawling around like ninjas to see who it was. Tiana and I crept over to the window in the living room, Sereina went to the window in hers. We looked out and I could barely see what looked kind of like a red hoodie. They stayed at the door, and we waited for them to go. But they didn't. People stay and knock a few times before leaving, but they were staying a little longer than the usual Joe.

Then we heard someone messing with the door. Okay, maybe they were leaving a flyer. But they kept messing with it. It didn't seem like they were just putting in a flyer, and we started to get suspicious. Tiana confirmed my thoughts by telling my to go get a gun. I ran to them, but after opening one of the cases the gun was not there. Where the heck had daddy put it? So I couldn't find any others, I looked the in the usual places. Then finally I just grabbed the AR just cause it was right there. But it didn't have a magazine, as I pointed out. No way would I fool anybody, if they did get into the house. Sereina checked again, but the person had gone thankfully. I put the AR back and everything was normal.

That was quite different. I didn't necessarily think someone was breaking in, but at the same time they were being a little strange. It turns out it was an old lady (haha, definitely didn't need to worry :P). But even when looking out windows there's no way to tell who's at the door unless they stand wayyyy back. So that was out interesting event of the day.

Haha, it's kind of silly looking back. But it's interesting, because as they continued to fiddle with the door my adrenaline started pumping. I wasn't scared, though maybe that's because I didn't truly sense danger. I mean I was going for the guns and I wasn't scared. But then again, I didn't have any cartridges so I knew I would never actually shoot. It's weird, thinking about if someone did break into the house. If I had the gun I've always wondered how I would feel. Calm? Scare? Angry? I really have no idea. I'm glad this was a false alarm. :)

So I've decided to try out Pandora, it's an online personal radio type thing. They got all kinds of music, and you create stations. You never know what they're going to play. I never used it before because I like specific songs, but i decided to give it a try. Of course they don't have any of Adrian von Ziegler or Brunuh Ville's music. But they do haves songs by Taylor Davis! Her music is awesome, especially her two original songs.

I challenged Tiana to a Monopoly showdown. She's always beat me in the past (this is sorta out game) because she is a hard bargainer. In other words, she doesn't budge. Well I challenged her, and whoever wins gets to choose tonight's movie. Tiana is thinking of the usual, Star Wars or Indiana Jones. I like those movies, but have seen them too many times. I'm thinking more like Avengers, Frozen or Tangled, Thor, etc. Probably an action movie. I love those!

Okay, I'm listening to one of the songs in the Batman trilogy. It was done my Hans Zimmer, one of my favorite official composers. He did the movies Spirit, The Lion King, The Amazing Spider-Man 2, Pirates of the Caribbean (which is one of my favorite movie soundtracks!). So this station (this is on Pandora) is more like my Hans Zimmer station than my soundtracks station. :P Ohhh, I should start a station for Irish songs. I used to have one on Sereina account, and there are some really awesome Irish songs. Maybe I'll start one for Gaelic songs too. The more exposed to the language I get, the better. Actually I've started to recognize a few words in s a few of the songs. At least I think I am. :)

I CAN'T WAIT FOR NANOWRIMO!!! Or October, when we can officially start filling out information about our novels on the sight, add a book cover, synopsis, etc. Ahh, I'm so excited! Okay, to any of my friends who read this please comment if you're doing NaNoWriMo. I honestly can't keep up with who is considering it or doing it or not. I'd really like to know so we can help each other plot, because there's only a month and a half left!

Oh, this is my 150th post! Wow, how did I get here already? Next stop two hundred I suppose.

Oh Glorious Rain, How I've Missed You

Why is my playlist bar whacking out on me? The funny thing is I haven't updates it since this happened, and I noticed the exact same thing on another friends blog. They must be having technical difficulties.

Today when I went outside to to morning chicken chores the world was a deep, rich green and grey. The grey was from our stones, and the colors of the plants had turned such vibrant colors. It's so wonderful because it's cold. Real cold, it' doesn't quite feel like this usual cold in the morning, then hot in the evening weather. Autumn is approaching and the weather is changing! I have missed the rain and cold. I am very happy to be cold, because I love warming up under a blanket with a warm drink. I get in my own cozy little nest and I can write and read and it's so much more enjoyable than when it's burning outside. I love cold weather!

I've been working hard on plotting my NaNo novel, and lately I've been working on my characters. For the fun of it I'm doing each character sheet in a different font so it's like each character has their own handwriting. I'm so excited for November! Oh yes, so I've been finding out how many of my friends are going to do it; one said yes, one said almost positively (as long as she comes up with a story), another said yes I think, another is but isn't doing it, and one is thinking about it. I hope more people do it than not, cause I'd love to interact on the sight, and give ideas and encouragement. Have writing sprints! Those are always fun, because you get really competitive and want to write the most words. Even if most of my friends don't, I'm going to do NaNo (obviously). I want to do it every year. It's just so encouraging writing so much in such a short about of time. I mean least year I wrote ninty three pages. Ninty three! I've never written that much before! Even though the story was a disaster and I don't let people read it (it would be so embarrassing) it's still cool to think I wrote that much.

This year's NaNo is going to be so different. I'm plotting so much more, I know the characters way better, and I just generally know what to expect. I think I'll set my goal to finish before Thanksgiving again. I don't want to be writing during all the chaos of Thanksgiving, Black Friday, etc.

So I asked my dad what my position would be called (you know, since I'm working for him/Trebon now) and he said I'm an Administrative Assistant. Don't that sound so cool? It's such an official title. ;)

Gah, I'm so excited for NaNoWriMo!

So I'm listening to music from the Nancy Drew games. My three absolute most favorite game soundtracks are Secret of Shadow Ranch (which just so happens to be my favorite game that I've memorized) Danger on Deception Island (which is set here in the San Juan's, based of of Deception Pass, a place I've gone camping), and The Silent Spy (which I can play one of the songs on piano, and it's set it Glasgow Scotland!). I should play one of those games tonight, but which one? It's always hard to choose, cause I've done them all so many times. Hardly any of them are a challenge. Out of all the games we own the only one's I have not personally beaten are Secrets can Kill (not the remaster one, which I did beat), The Captive Curse, and The Secret of the Scarlet Hand. They're pretty tough. Some of this music is actually quite creepy. I love it! Certain elements are really freaky, and I would not listen to a certain few of these songs at night. I know then I would start thinking of an extremely freaky dream I had.

Actually, I don't think I ever mentioned that dream. Now we've all had nightmares, but I've never had one wake me up in the middle of the night before. This one did. We I woke my heart was pounding so hard; I know understand the term 'heart in your throat.' I mean it was hard to break, literally like I'd just been running for my life. Even now in the darkened daylight the dream is a little creepy. I'm not trying to say I don't get scared, but it does take a lot to get me worked up like this, but dreams are a bit different I suppose. They feel so real, it does rather feel more like a memory than a dream.

So I think I'm going to get payed soon, from working at Trebon, and I've decided that since It'll be my biggest paycheck ever in my life I might just have to splurge in celebration. I haven't decided for sure yet, but it would be kind of nice to get a few things, or one bit thing. I really don't know what I'd buy as of the moment. Maybe food. :P Actually wait, I collect the Disney princess dolls (I know, me collecting dolls? Weird, I know. But they're cool!) I could maybe get a doll. There is one, the wedding dress Rapunzel, that I want. I have a feeling that one might go away soon so I'd want to get it. Tiana has it, and I usually play her. She is Queen Vampire (it's a long story) and Flynn is her minion. Then there's Anna, she finally got married to Hans. Oh, and Mother G. That is Mother Gothel, but I never call her that anymore.

Well, I should get back to work on my novel. Besides, I have to go help tidy up the house soon, then when my dad leaves I have some work to do on my job. So far I'm enjoying my job! Maybe I'll play Axis of Villains or something with Daniel later too.

Okay, I'm not quite done. But I was just thinking, see my playlist just turned to one of the more mournful songs from Danger on Deception Island. It is, in a sense, quite amazing just how much music affects our mood. At least it does mine. It comes with so much inspiration though! I mean when a sad song plays after a bunch of happy ones I usually go really still and my eyes go out of focus. I start thinking really hard about something sad from my characters past. All my characters have something sad in their past, otherwise they're not interesting. Like most of my characters are orphans. It's pretty rare that my characters have living parents. I don't have anything against them, but most of the time if my character is fighting a rebellion or traveling across the world I don't want them having the usual worries about getting home safely. I want them to be reckless, or feel lost and without hope. I dunno, it's just how I work.

Okay, now I'm going to end this post. Or will I? You all know my track record "one more thing, no just one more thing, this will be the last things, not this will be the last thing". Now I shall leave. Mar sin leibh.

A Little of This, A Little of That

Well, I've been plotting my novel for NaNoWriMo. Tiana and I got up early this morning and set up our computers (and in my case, the Chrome book) at the dining table, in the places we spend almost the entire month of November last year. We decided to do a "pre NaNo" type thing together, where we'll get up and plot our novels together. So far I'm doing pretty good. To be honest I shouldn't have chosen this novel for NaNoWriMo, because I have one with so much more plot. But oh well, I will stick to Believe (my novel) for this years NaNo, because if I change once, I'll change a million times.

Last Friday we had our friends the McAndrews over. It was a lot of fun! Both of our family's have photographers in them, so Lauryn and me had to keep our guard up. Neither of us are too fond of having our picture taken. It just feels so... weird. I mean I'd love to have some good photo's of myself and all, but posing for photos, and going out and taking them feels so unnatural. Kind of like dressing up/acting. I'll admit, I'd love to have some epic shots, or to "live in my books" by dressing and acting the part. But it's something that will never become a reality, because acting makes me very uncomfortable. I don't exactly know why, but dressing and being who you aren't... having emotions you don't actually feel. It's just awkward. I don't mean to sound arrogant, but I think I'd be a fairly good actor if I really, really wanted to. But I just don't. I guess I just like to keep it all in my mind, or on the page.

So on YouTube I now follow this channel, EpicMusicVN, and they help composers get hits of their videos and music. I really like some of the music I've found, though some of the pictures they have on screen while the music is playing can be a little inappropriate. But there's this one compilation that I love so much! It's forty one minutes of music by Jo Blanckenburg. His music is AMAZING! Oh my gosh, it's like all I'm listening to right now! The first three songs are probably my favorite, except for one song, Hymn of the Apocalypse. For some reason that song just struck me, and I may just have to write a post apocalyptic novel. Actually I have one in the works, but I'm going to try and complete one of my other novels first. I currently have like nine. But there are only about five that I've really got a bit on characters and plot and things. But yeah, that song is just so epic, and I really love it.

Doji is still missing. Posters are up, and we checked the shelters. One had a cat though could have been Kokopelli's brother, he looked almost identical to him. But that's not Doji. It's so weird to think he's been missing for a week now. Actually, I'm feeling oddly calm about it now. I just try not to think on it too much, because I over think a lot. I think of literally every thing that could have possibly happened and I just don't even want to go there.

So the other day I was at the library, and I decided to look in our history section. First off let me say, it's a really tiny library, so it didn't take me long to find it. It was pretty pathetic, sad to say. I did find three books though, one about the Titanic, and two about the Romanov's. There's one that I recognized on the spot, The Resurrection of the Romanov's. I think I saw it on Goodreads before or something. Naturally I had to check it out, even though I have so many other books that I need to read before I have to return them to the library. Such as The Giver, The Book Thief, Murder at Hatfield House, The Shadow Throne, The Time Travelers Guide to Medieval England, Artemis Fowl, etc. Then there's book I own that I need to read/finish reading like The Deathly Hallows, Golden Sovereign, Anne of Green Gables, Mara, Daughter of the Nile, etc.

I think I've almost completed my training for working for my dad (i.e. Trebon). It's not the kind of training where I'm going to class, and he's teaching me everyday. I'll just be doing something like cleaning the house, reading, writing, and he'll just call me and show me things I'll have to do. Today I had to move some files around, and one needed updating, because we got a different lender than we originally anticipated. It's actually quite fun, as I've said before. I feel so important working pulling the file out and looking through things, checking it off, creating folders and things, prepping emails. It's just fun.

Tiana and I want this warm weather to die. We are ready for Autumn. I am ready for Summer to die. It's been too hot lately. I mean, Summer's okay, but I have very specific standards. Honestly the best part of Summer is when it's evening, and your outside and people have their sprinklers going. The sun is just beginning to set, and you're barefoot on the pavement, staring at the golden light. The air just barely stirs, and the temperature is just to the point where you don't need a coat, but you aren't the least bit hot. When the sky is clear, except in the distance where the clouds glow creating a brilliant sunset. That is what I love about Summer. As for the rest, eh. I'd take a fall day, sitting inside with a warm drink and fuzzy socks any day.

I Hate This

Doji is still missing. We are going to print posters today and put them up. We checked with our neighbor (the ones who had the basement that Kokopelli got himself stuck in for five days). But Doji wasn't there. There really hasn't been any sign, and I know if he could come home he would. So he's either trapped or hurt so badly that he can't move. I hate to think that either one is true, but I would prefer trapped. I wish we'd find him.

The odd and freakish thing about it is if feels almost normal. It almost feels like he's been gone so much longer, like something happened and we know he's not coming back. I mean, I don't want it to feel normal. I don't want him to be gone! I need closure. I always imagined that our cats would die of old age, and we'd know that they were gone. But not knowing, thinking that maybe he could be in someone's home, trapped, hurt, in a shelter, dead. It's ten times worse than him just being dead, but cause you just don't know. Ug, I hate this.

The Worst Kind of Deja Vu

So around a year ago (a short while after I started consistently posting here) my cat Kokopelli went missing. He was gone for five days, and it ended up be got stuck in the neighbors basement. Well, today we realized something really bizarre (in my mind at least), and I'm kind of panicking inside. Doji has been missing for three days, and we didn't noticed until this evening! We keep trying to think back, but the last time we remember seeing him was Monday. Now I know cats are survivors, and very well capable of taking care of themselves (as they have proven time and time again). But I'm really worried. Our cats are too curious about strangers cars, so what if they got locked in a strangers car, or accidentally driven away? Hopefully that monstrosity of a feral cat hasn't returned and beat him up (that's literally the last thing we need now). Though we probably would have heard it if it was close by (cats aren't exactly discreet when they start a fight).

The worst thing is, our cats are not afraid of cars. They would literally get run over by our cars if we didn't stop. They just don't care. I just hope Doji's okay.

As you can see, this is completely consuming my mind. I get worried really easily. That's rather put a damper on tomorrow, the day we planned to have some friends (who lives about an hour away) come over for the day. I'm still extremely excited, but now it's doused with worry. Jumping up and down with excitement has lost its appeal. Because every day that passes is another day he's not home; and with every day I get more panicked and worried.

Ug. I feel like I should be doing something! Looking for him! Something! But he could be anywhere. For all I know he's deep in the berry bushes beside our house, and somewhere deep in the neighborhood, stuck in someone's garage. This is eating me up inside. I want him home. That's the thing, is when our cats die I want us to know right away. Deep inside me I have the worry that he's... dead. But I don't want him to die and leave us thinking he's still out there. Ughhh... I'm so worried. I hate this feeling, and it's becoming too familiar (I know, it's only the second time, but still).

Stuff

So I was thinking about my blog, and if people read it. Like, sometimes I'll be with friends and they'll say something that I never mentioned and I'm all like really suspicious (not really). How on earth do they know this? So I ask and they're just like, "I read your blog." Whhaaat? People read my blog?! It always surprises me, just cause only one of my friends has ever left comments, and that's the only why I can know if someone's read my blog (apart from the hits counter, but that doesn't really tell me. Besides, it's there just cause I can have it).

Now it's got me wondering, how many of my friends have read my blog? Do they read it consistently? Does it even make any sense to the outside world? Because, I'm not sure I ever mentioned this before, this blog is more of an online, public diary type thing. That's why I don't invite people to read it, because there are a lot of spelling mistakes, and I don't worry about making everything super clear and things. So when people get to my blog they usually find it via my Goodreads account... hmm, I think that's it. Well, and the LOL Kids forum.

I got Castles, Customs, and Kings from the library again. I keep having to return it. Ug. I'm gonna have to buy it once I get some cash. I'm only in training for my new job, so that means I'm still broke. I'll almost miss saying how I'm broke all the time. I dunno why, so don't ask. But having money will be ten times better. Then I'll be able to buy things, like OH GOSH A COMPUTER! I never thought of that. My old computer is d-e-a-d, in case I never mentioned that before. But now that I'll eventually be making more that twenty dollars a month I have hope. Gosh, that'd be nice. Other things I'd like to buy are more arrows for my compound bow, a new bow cause I'm old one is tiny, a proper hand and finger guard, a bracer, a few books, and more.

So I'm over half way done reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. So far I've passed Dobby's death, and I dread the approach of Fred's. Gaaaaahhhhhh... saddest death ever! How could they do that?! Gr. But at least Harry should be learning about Snape's innocence soon. Snape is pretty awesome (another plus to being in Slytherin :P). Only Voldy wont stand a chance.

In completely unrelated news, I have not been studies Gaelic very much lately. Bad me. I should go do that now. Actually, I should try and read through my notes (i.e. every bit of Gaelic I've learned so far) so I can memorize what I've learned so far. I wish I knew someone who already knew Scottish Gaelic, so I could ask them questions such as, is "tha mi math" a sentence? Cause I know "tha mi gu math" is, and it's just the difference of saying "I am good" versus "I am well." I think it's a real sentence, but the program didn't cover that. Oh well, maybe my vocabulary will be limited at first, but at least I'm learning!

Pulling Right

So last Saturday my family (excluding Sereina and Tiana) went to The Pit. This may sound confusing if you are anyone but someone I know (even people I know might be confused). The Gravel Pit, (such a creative name, I know) it a place out in a secret location where we go shooting. It's location shall remain a mystery for now. But basically it's exactly as the name implies, a gravel pit; it's the perfect place for shooting. There's a large back wall so we don't hit anything we don't want too, it's remote and there's no rules about no rapid fire (my personal favorite's to do that with are the AR-15 and SR .22).

So yes, we went to The Gravel Pit. We actually went with a new family we met, who wanted to teach their sons, who are a bit younger than I, to shoot. My grandpa also came for a short while, as well as Rob, a friend of my dads. Well, we drove out there really early so we could secure the pit (it's a first come first serve basis out there). Luckily we got it all to ourselves, and after setting up the targets (i.e. soda cans, paper targets, clay pigeons, etc.) we started shooting. Or should I say everyone else did.

See, we were sorta there to help train them to use the weapons, because we were letting them use our guns. In fact, I'm not even sure the dad knew how to shoot, or had shot before... Hm. Anyways, the training commenced, which mostly my dad took charge (I don't like being the center of attention in a group, so I gladly let him do everything). He started with a standard safety brief, covering the fundamentals, and all that. To be honest, I haven't shot in over a year, so I was really terrible at remembering the four basic safety rules at first.

Anyways, we finally started shooting. Since we had new people shooting I didn't shoot very much. I did go through a few mags on the SR .22 but since I's so out of practice I didn't his any of the small targets. Turns out I was pulling right, and so was my dad. We discovered this after my mom shot through a mag and only hit the bottom right of the target. We thought the sights were off, but when I went to test it I just shot right. I think I'm over gripping. That's were you put too much of your finger on the trigger, causing your to move your hand every so slightly as you shoot. My dad used to over grip all the time, but I noticed that and he's been pretty good ever since. Mostly I just need to practice more.

We were going to work on our Marksman Qualification, but we forgot the targets. But it's probably for the best in the end though. I mean, I wasn't at my best; and that was with two hands! I've moved on to one handed (in both right and left hand), timed shooting. Let's just say I might have saved myself from epic failure. :P Nothing a little practice wouldn't remedy though.

So yeah, that was our trip to The Pit. I'd love to go out there more often. We're discussing going up there one more time for the season, before it gets too cold. But in my mind, the colder the better. It was so hot when we went to the pit! See, there's little, to no air flow, so the seventy five degrees felt more like ninety to ninety five in the sun. It was torture! Handling the firearms in that heat was so hard, because they heat up so quickly on their own, without the help of the sun! So I saw let's shoot in cold weather! It's a heck of a lot better than in the heat!

In completely unrelated news, I've been re-watching H2O Just Add Water on Netflix. I finally got around to it! I've only seen the first season, and that was years ago, so I'm re watching the entire thing. I'm about... six-ish episodes away from completely season one. I forgot how much I love that show! It's kinda cheesy (not that I'm not used to cheesy), but I love it all the same.

The newest Nancy Drew game finally has an official trailer! I have a feeling my friend, Evangeline, would like this one. She once told me that she liked Greek Mythology, so if she still does then she might like this game (or be completely appalled at how accurate it is. You know how games/movies are). It's called Labyrinth of Lies, and Nancy is going to a museum with lots of ancient Greek artifacts that are being stolen. Actually, if you're interested, just look up the trailer. :) I'd love to pre order this one (as well as pretty much every Nancy Drew game they release) but as usual, I'm broke.

Actually, speaking of broke, I quite my job. Haha, that sounds weird. Yeah, I quite my paper delivery job. I just didn't really care for it. Besides, my dad has already started training me to work for him (Trebon). I'll be helping him out by drafting emails, keeping things organized in his computer, collecting important documents from clients, etc. It's actually kinda fun so far. Makes me feel important. What's better, the pay is gonna be incredible. I think I'm gonna be too rich. :P

OH IT'S DOCTOR WHO TIME, GOTTA GO THAT TAKES PRIORITY! TWELVE IS AMAZING, AND IT'S TIME TO MEET THE FAMOUS ROBIN HOOD!

Autumn?!

Okay, so yesterday I discovered something that's still blowing my mind a little. My entire life I always thought and said I was born in Winter, but I was in fact born in Autumn. How did I not know this?! Cause like, we were discussing the seasons (and how Summer feels like it's ten times longer than is really is) and then someone said how Winter starts only a week before Christmas. I'm like, wait, what? So yeah, turns out I was technically born in Autumn, not Winter. I'm not sure how I feel about this.

So I've started coming up with plot for Believe for NaNo, but now I feel like doing my other story, Shadows (previously The Shadows. Minor difference). I'm kinda torn, just cause right now I feel like doing Shadows, and I do have a bit more plot for it, soooo... yeah. Tiana says I need to stick with Believe, cause otherwise I'll keep switching. Which is probably true. But, but... yeah, I really should stay with Believe. It's not that I don't want to write it, but I currently feel more drive for Shadows. Okay, time to get back into the mindset for Believe.

I have this notebook, and it's almost entirely black except for some piano keys on the side, and it says notes on the from. :P Haha, pretty cool. I decided to use that as my journal thing to write down all my ideas and such for Believe; mostly because the setting for Believe has a bit to do with old pianos... though why I'm not sure yet. I haven't gotten that far yet.

This NaNoWriMo I'm going to keep a journal. So for thirty days, or however long it takes me to write my story, I will keep a journal of my thoughts. I have a strong feeling there will be entries such as: This story is terrible! Why'd I even start this? It's complete rubbish! Or; wow, this is going better than excepted. This is gonna be a great first draft.

Well, I'd better get back to work. Only 57 days remain to plot and plan, and I'm not doing myself any favors procrastinating!

More Orphans!!!

That title sounds extremely weird and wrong, unless you're a write. I am a writer, so it sounds normal and all. But I suppose you're wanting to know what I mean; what about more orphans! Well, it all starts with NaNoWriMo.

Only 59 days until NaNoWriMo, so Tiana and I have been getting out survival kits out. We've been narrowing down our many stories to just one, so that we can start seriously plotting and preparing for the dreaded month of November. So far I've narrowed it down to three stories, Tiana's narrowed it down to one. It was while discussing out stories that I realized: in almost all of my stories, all my main characters are orphans. Most of Tiana's are that way too! So yeah, I just found that kinda funny.

Okay, so time has passed since I wrote that paragraph, and I have decided to do my story Believe for NaNoWriMo. I'm scared out of my wits now. It's got almost no plot. Yikes! At least I've got two months to do some hard core preparation.

Well, I should get back to preping. I've got a lot of work to do to be ready for NaNoWriMo. It's gonna be a great month!